Have you ever wanted to give up?
I have – many a time…
The first time I created an online course, two people enrolled.
Right after I decided I was going to stop being crazy around food, my boyfriend (at the time) woke up – in the middle of the night to pee – to find me with a jar of peanut butter and knife in hand, standing in front of the open fridge, peanut butter dripping down my chin…
And, just as I was entering my thirties, I had to move in with my parents and put the pieces of my life back together, after my own home and relationship fell apart.
In retrospect, these now look like silly things to me because…
Those two people in my program had the best experience ever,
My nightly peanut butter rages helped me to be able to – today – better help my clients take back their power from food, feel confident in their bodies, and connected to themselves again.
And that relationship taught me that if I wanted someone – anyone – to believe I was worth it, I needed to believe I was worth it.
That’s the thing…
The path to inner-peace, happiness, joy, or success (whatever word you feel called to) is not a direct, straightforward, upward spiral path.
In fact, it’s anything but.
It’s loopy and full of bumps, it’s imperfect, and at times, it’s pull-out-your-hair, while ugly crying confusing.
But amidst the twists and turns, lies beauty, lessons, and surprises. And things that when we surrender, let go, and show up for that we never could have imagined possible.
The catch is – the only way we can start seeing what’s possible is by allowing ourselves to try, fail, and still keep going.
That, my sweet friend, is resilience.
And resilience (luckily) is something you can build and strengthen over time.
So this is a simple note to let you know that just because you tried something once – or even a bunch of times – especially when it comes to changing your relationship with food, your body, or yourself – it doesn’t mean that you can’t. It doesn’t mean that there’s something wrong with you. And it doesn’t mean that it hasn’t prepared you for something else, even more beautiful that is yet to come.
So do yourself a favor and stop thinking there’s something wrong with you, ok?
Instead, try calling yourself what you really are… A beautiful soul who is out there doing big, bold, brave beautiful things.
And please don’t stop trying because you’re afraid to fail or get rejected or because you’re afraid of what someone else may think.
Because the last time I checked, there is no success without failure, no opportunities without rejection, and the only person who knows deep down what is best for you is YOU.
Honor that and show yourself some kindness while you’re at and when you’re ready, try again.
Sending lots of love your way,