There was this client I was working with who was moving through anxiety.
At first, she had no idea why anxiety was coming to visit. But to tell you the truth, deep down inside she knew. She just didn’t really want to look at it.
But then – she got real quiet – and decided to stop listening to her head and start listening to her heart.
Once she did this, she saw her anxiety clearly, but this time without fear.
It was …
Anxiety of the unknown.
Anxiety of putting herself fully out there in a way she never had.
Anxiety of showing up to do the work, regardless of the outcome.
Plus, it was anxiety of going all in.
All in into trusting that the Universe would have her back when she showed up.
All in into trusting others in her life.
All in into trusting herself – this was a big one.
And all into surrendering and listening to the deep knowing that things always work out how they’re supposed to … when you’re yourself.
It took her some time for the anxiety to pass, but when she looked at it – fully – she could move through it. Instead of being afraid of the anxiety and fear, she just accepted it.
It was in this acceptance, she found release.
You see, this past month, I’ve been showing up in my business and life, like never before and it’s scary. It’s required me to dig deep and make some hard decisions, like the decision I recently made…
I decided to not go back to school for another Masters degree. Maybe I will later, maybe I won’t. I don’t know yet, but I don’t need to know. All I know is that now is not the right time.
You see, by day two of class, my intuition kept telling me, “Now is not the time.” But I was stubborn, so I kept telling my intuition, “I’m going all in this year, please be quiet.”
Later, it hit me. By going back to school, I wasn’t going “all in.” In fact, I was setting myself up to go “half-in” in my business and “half-in” in school. Self-sabotage, sound familiar?
Granted, some can do both things “all in,” but I know myself well enough to know that I’m not one of them.
So – I dug deeper and discovered what I was really afraid of. I was afraid of failing. I was afraid of things not working out. I was afraid – and full of anxiety – about the unknown.
Even with a dozen “what is?” floating around in my brain, I knew what I needed to do. So I took a step down.
Because if I didn’t, I was preventing myself from being great.
Because I was scared.
The truth is sometimes – okay most of the time – the things that we need to do to get to greatness scare us – whether that’s reaching out for help, fully being ourselves in our relationships, or learning how to listen and trust our body … or taking a step back from something we thought we wanted to do or something we said we’d do.
The road to greatness can be scary.
But you know what’s also scary? Not allowing ourselves to travel down that road. Even when it’s hard. Even when it’s confusing. And even when it’s uncertain.
I encourage you to play with the question – What do you need to release in your life to help pave the road to greatness?
Maybe it’s a belief.
Maybe it’s fear.
Maybe it’s allowing yourself to be really seen.
Maybe it’s not taking things personally.
Or, maybe it’s just showing up.
The answer isn’t always easy, but it always shines light on the truth.
And someone once told me that the truth sets you free.
Find your truth.